Ze has also been diagnosed as Borderline Personality and I"m not sure if I agree with that or not. Ze was never one to stir up shit just for the sake of drama, although there was certainly no lack of drama during the ups and downs.
And ze has never really come close to actually killing herself. The attempts were generally more "I'm going to _____" (jump off building, take these pills, cut my wrists) but not a lot of actually doing any of those things. I don't think Ze was ONLY doing it for attention, or ONLY doing it to actually die, but doing it because Ze didn't know what else to do, since ze was so unhappy.
I really don't know. But I do fear that Ze will eventually ACTUALLY succeed at some point, because ze doesn't have a thick enough skin to survive the inevitable rejection and plain mean spiritedness that the human race loves to share.
I suppose that all I can do is be supportive, but I just wish it felt more like the right thing to do, and I would feel better giving that support? Not that I"m withholding it, but it kind of feels fake right now. (to me)
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Date: 2015-09-25 10:47 pm (UTC)And ze has never really come close to actually killing herself. The attempts were generally more "I'm going to _____" (jump off building, take these pills, cut my wrists) but not a lot of actually doing any of those things. I don't think Ze was ONLY doing it for attention, or ONLY doing it to actually die, but doing it because Ze didn't know what else to do, since ze was so unhappy.
I really don't know. But I do fear that Ze will eventually ACTUALLY succeed at some point, because ze doesn't have a thick enough skin to survive the inevitable rejection and plain mean spiritedness that the human race loves to share.
I suppose that all I can do is be supportive, but I just wish it felt more like the right thing to do, and I would feel better giving that support? Not that I"m withholding it, but it kind of feels fake right now. (to me)