Assorted odds and sots. And a one person pity party (rl)

[tripperfunster]

First off: HALLOWEEN COSTUMES ARE FINISHED! *dances* I BEGGED Quincey to be megamind this year, but no, he wanted to be Fireball Mario. For those who aren't into video games, Fireball Mario is basically regular Mario (Bros) except he wears RED overalls with a white shirt and hat. This of course means that this costume must be MADE and not purchased. Generally i like making costumes, but if it's something UNINSPIRED like this, I'd prefer to spend the $30 and save myself the horrors of sewing. I even made the hat, which was it's own brand of fresh hell.

Other son has 'issues' about halloween and dressing up, but also has issues about "OMG want candy", so he has worn the same ghost costume that I'd made him five years ago. needless to say, it's too small now. I asked him what he wanted to be this year, and guess what? A GHOST! But this time he wanted to be a BLACK ghost. :D Oookay! So, sort of dementor-ish ghost.

Stupid customers at work were SO stupid this week! I honestly don't even have the energy to type about the massive stupidity, but suffice to say, that yes, you DO have to remove the plastic wrap from your filter inserts before you put them in your aquarium. Sort of like, you need to remove the wrapper from your chocolate bar before you eat it. duh!

My newest bead creation IS LOOKING SO EFFIN' COOL! I went with a more 'realistic' colour scheme, which was kind of risky, because caucasian skin tone beads are few and far between. (hence my earlier blue schemes) This one is Kirk/spock.

Speaking of Kirk, William Shatner was at Central Canada comicon this past weekend. He was booked for Saturday only, and I thought .. hey he's here in my city, this may well be my first/last chance to ever see him, I should do it! So I begged staff to work for me on Saturday, shuffled the kids' hockey games over to hubby and set to go see Captain Kirk. Except, when I checked the schedule the night before, it announced that he had switched to Sunday instead. *raeg*

I decided to go on Saturday regardless, because I'd never been to a comic con before. (just hp cons) Harrison (my 9yo son) wanted to go with me. He's into Pokemon and thought there might be some cool stuff for him to buy/see. So we get there, and he gets all weird. Well, weirder than usual. He has a bad habit of complaining when he doesn't like something. Everyone does it, of course, but he just ... can't stop. He's improving, but it's OMG SO GODDAMNED ANNOYING. Sort of like kids on a long car drive that say "arewethereyet? arewethereyet? arewethereyet?" the whole way. He starts in with "I don't like it here. I don't want to be here. Let's go home."

(we are just in line to buy our entrance tickets at this point). I say, Hey, just give it a try. You don't know what to expect, and neither do I, so lets get our tickets and see what it's like."

Two minutes later. "I don't want to be here."

So I left. He got all, "hey! Wait! I don't KNOW if I want to go or not!" But I was done. I seriously was NOT about to pay money to go somewhere where he bitched and moaned the whole time. Oh man, I was pissed. I didn't yell or scream, of course, but I got very quiet for a long time. I was so ripped off I could have cried.

I think I was so upset because .. it was like a con. Well, it WAS a con, but it had that sort of HP con excitement, even though I had no friends going there, nobody was waiting for me, or KNEW me, but it FELT like there would be. :D People were in costumes and joking around in line with each other, and it really made me feel ... lonely. It's like I suffered from Con-Drop without even being at a con.

I don't have any fandom friends in RL. Hell, I don't really have any FRIENDS in RL. I have lots of acquaintances. People I say hello to. A group of us might go for lunch every few months, but like ... nobody who calls me just to see how I'm doing, or invites just me out to lunch, or over for coffee or anything. *sigh*

And it's sort of compounded now because I end up with a bunch of other parents at my son's hockey practice, but there's nobody there that I click with either. And I"ve tried! Pretty much all of them have kid's my son's age, and I've invited them over, or out for coffee, etc etc, and yeah ... nothing. We might go out once, and *I* feel like we've connected, or had a pretty good time, but obviously THEY don't, since it seems to always be a one or two time deal, and then i get brushed off if I try again.

And it's not just me, Hubby has said the same thing about them too. My husband has a lot of childhood friends that he bumps into all over the city, but he also doesn't really have a 'buddy' that he hangs with either. The difference being, he doesn't seem to mind/care, whereas *I* am STARVING for social interactions.

Whaaa! Nobody loves me, everybody hates me, I'm going to go and eat some worms. and by worms I mean chocolate

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[sumsumlovesyou.livejournal.com]

Well, I know the internet doesn't seem like much, and that this might seem like a lame reach out, but I assure you it's genuine, but I'm always here if you ever feel like chatting or dishing out. I know I'm about a 1,000 miles away so no going out for overpriced coffee or happy hours, but my inbox is always open, and I love talking. Just remember that next time you feel like you need to hear from someone with estrogen. Plus, I just had a baby, so, I'm practically bursting with that crazy hormone!

[tripperfunster.livejournal.com]

Ooh baby!! Good for you!

Where are you? I"m central canada and there is only one other fandomer that I know of here, and she's not into slash. And she's in like Scotland right now. :D

I do appreciate the offer hon, and may take you up on it. Fandom has been such a life saver for me. Well, not life saver, as I'm not that far gone. Sanity saver for sure!

[sumsumlovesyou.livejournal.com]

I'm in boring old Kansas City, Kansas. I don't know any fandomers here, although I have a gay cousin who loves HP slash, but he moved away. All my fandom friends seem to live outside of my country!

I will agree that fandom has been a life saver, for me in a literal sense. Someone I met through it really helped me through a very dark time once, the friendships I've made through it have been wonderful lifelines.

It's funny how something so silly really brings people together. At heart, I guess we're all just total perves! :D